You may be one of them. And from your own personal experience, you may know that it is not nice being referred to as a John. Other men down at the bar may boast that they never have to pay for sex. That is their affair. Right now, it is all about you, and you really want to get rid of that stigma. No one, not even you, knows why you must pay for it, but perhaps attending the online or group john school may be able to provide some clues.
The school you will be signing up for is part of your progressive journey. It places you on that road to recovery. It is an educational intervention for those of you who have that misunderstood fetish for prostitutes. Today, you also wonder why they are referred to as sex workers. Yes, for thousands of years, these condemned women have been called all sorts of names. Today, you wonder. You thought you had it bad?
Cross the line and step into their world and then you begin to realize and appreciate just how hard life can be. The argument can be made that a majority of women step into this trade involuntary and out of sheer desperation. They are not plying this trade because they enjoy it. They see this as a way out of poverty and hardship. Ironically for them, many women end up enduring still more hardship. And yes, it is good that you are wracked with guilt.
This guilt that you feel has nothing to do with the stigma. It has nothing to do with being found out. It is all about you, wanting to stop doing something that you believe is not good for your health and mental well-being.